Those people....

There are those people that you for some reason always feel drawn to. You don’t even have to know them well; they don’t even have to seemingly acknowledge your existence yet you have this warm feeling about them.

You don’t need to see them all the time, you somehow still feel connected. They turn up in your most profound dreams and may even take on a supporting role in those dreams. For some reason even when you are at odds with them you have a feeling like they are a pair of your favourite old slippers that you have worn forever and you just know that they are such good quality that they will never wear out.

You never get close to them for some reason. Occasionally you spend time wondering why that is and why it is you still feel so connected to them. You end up asking yourself what you are waiting for and whether you should try to get closer to them or not. You wonder if they feel the same or if they are they completely oblivious to you and what you are feeling.

Sometimes they disappear out of your life never to be seen again or perhaps to turn up later quite unexpectedly. Sometimes you don’t see them for days, weeks or months but you heart and soul sing when they come into view again and you don’t even have to have them acknowledge you in any way. It’s as thought the sheer presence of their energy is enough to soothe you even when you didn’t know you were aching for it. Sometimes they nudge ever closer to you but it takes years. It’s so subtle that you don’t really notice and even if you do, you decide that because it’s moving so slowly they are not feeling what you do.

It happens sometimes that they reach out and physically touch you, quite unexpectedly, seemingly by accident during a conversation. To your great surprise it feels so right, even though you really don’t like to be touched by people you don’t know well, that it’s almost like you don’t even notice, like they have done it a thousand times before and you’re already used to their touch. Their energy seems so familiar to you that is doesn’t feel like an intrusion at all, like their already part of you, like you were once one. It doesn’t feel at all the way it does when most people touch you, even your lover. It is cotton candy soft, warm and it permeates your whole being until it eventually touches your heart. You imagine that it’s what love really feels like, not romantic love, just love.

At times you allow yourself to long for more, to wonder if things could be different, if they’re your soul-mate. You realise that trying to figure out why it is the way it is with them and you will just make you sad and frustrated, making you wish that you could have more of the closeness you’ve already tasted. You choose to appreciate what little contact there has been between and you allow it to become your refuge island in an otherwise stormy and treacherous sea. You choose to stay silent and invisible to them while waiting for signs that they noticed you and feel the way you do.

Who are these people and why do they exist? I would really like to know because one of these people has been in my life for over eight years now.